eXpertitions of MI

2005-07-16T09:52:00.000+08:00

morning!! this web this a lot of dusting to b done. lots of cobwebs! hahaha.. many things had happened this year.. i had a bf recently but we call off.. hm u may ask who broke it off.. well both of us made the decision.. thats for the best seriously. the whole point is to bring the situation back on track.. hey i noe lots of ppl(np guys) heard my history with my ex.. (jim) hahaa.. but im unsure of what they heard.. but somehow i cant realli care animore..

hmm. a junior angry at mi.. or rather i should said trying to compete with mi.. sending provoking msges which i didnt reply.. wow this is a completely diff scene i have seen so far.. i didnt noe stuff could get so messy.. haha. this is a experience to rmb.

Each of us had past.. where some who didnt wan to disclose to the public but somehow at times it was leak.. im a victim n im shaken by it.. what to do? i cant trust ppl too much..

Have u wonder abt the good stuff that happened to u n u didnt realised its god that giv it to u?instead of thanking him for them, u blame god for giving u obstacles.. i realised that most ppl are onli aware of the bad fall in their life but not rmb the opportunity n chances god have gave n created for us.. SO let's change the error!! start thinking positively.. =)

2004-12-04T10:33:00.000+08:00

just woke up!! muahaha.. slept for about 16 hours!! hehe the moment i reached home, i switched on the aircon to the coolest temperature and plunge straight into dreamland. on thursday, the four of us soofang, cq, syam n mi went to help out the band's campfire after they asked for our assistant.. though it was tough with limited man power, we have loads of fun! Mr lai apparently was in a good mood so we have not much edge with him. that's considerably lucky! =p anyway, the campfire's a success we did a new 'pattern' during the starting that is 1 main fireball coming down from the 4th storey followed by 2 kerosene bomb with sparklers attached! it came down at the other 2 corners.. hehehe it was the first time we did this.. =) after the campfire, the four of us started to go crazy and fool around the campfire with songs and 'dance' whahaha.. the whole night n wee hours we didnt sleep at all!! we stayed up telling spooky stories with miss myra ho and miss hashima!! heh.. or rather it was miss hashima who told all!! it was fantastically spooky and we all huddle together. it got all of us freak out including miss hashima herself!! hehee.. so can u imagine?! it was around 4 plus tat miss hashima doze off to sleep when we started playing poker.. it was tons of fun.. o ya! i missed out the part where miss myra ho called us urgently to help the 2 tchers out! actualli.. it was to help them cleared the food.. =\ hahah we stuffed ourselves and could not finished the rest.. hehee we were still feeling full when we are clearing the pit in the morning at around 7 am. by the time mr lai arrived at 8, we have cleared most of the things and was heading to rest.. saw the band having activities which we see see.. laughing at them!! =p the 4 of us went home at around 10.10am n meet up in school at around 12 plus in school for cgls meeting.. and another at 230 for ogls meeting.. it was hectic for us though! trying to be brighter in the meetings which is impossible.. hmm.. after a lunch+ dinner at burger king i reached home at 5 and slept all the way to this morning at 9am =) refreshing man! whahaha

2004-12-01T13:17:00.000+08:00

today is sooo bored! so i decided to do something abt my rusty blog.. hmm hahaha.. upload a pic of kayaking.. hehehe im actualli surposed to go kayaking today but my partner cant make it for the day.. so got to postpone to sunday. Now landed at home with nothing to do!! sad to say i have knee injuries.. n this time its really painful.. even walking have some difficulty though most of the time i can be seen walking normally. As for half squat or kneeling on the floor, i can cry out in pain.. hai.. went for an accupuncture ( those needles poking through your flesh!!) and felt slightly better but still on medication though. hai.. missed out on most things like badminton and camps activites!! heart pain** =p as for the pictures, im sorri that for now i dun have mine for the moment! hehehe.. i wished i can have mine but then during kayaking how to take?! jkjk.. whahaha.. *gRooWWW* oops! that's my stomach calling for lunch!

2004-12-01T12:39:00.000+08:00

this is one of the pic of an kayaker! cool right??
cool pic right?? it's one of the pic of the kayakers!!

2004-11-14T13:46:00.000+08:00

yestersay was too tired for words! peddle peddle~ hahaha.. u get the idea. went for kayaking yesterday with 4 of my other friends phew~ the tired thing was trying to stay in rectangle of the orange bob n red bob!! the 5 of us were peddling like mad when all the while we are drifting back to the orange bob... the moment my head touches my pillow i was off to dreamland so now u noe the power of the waves!

2004-11-10T18:25:00.000+08:00

skin peeling from my face man! hahaha.. it realli is horrible.. EeEK realli gross.. my face got patches of new skin n burnt skin.. YUcKs like beinbg disfigured! =p hmm today hav a meetin but quite boring.. it's bout the npcc annual camp stuff~ hey next time im goin for kayaking im goin to apply 2cm thick of sun tan lotion on my face!!!

2004-11-08T16:06:00.000+08:00

yoz!!!!! whahaha.. sooo long nv blogged le.. quite a sorry state is my blog.. hmm.. last sat n sun i went for a 1 star kayak course! finalli.. hahah.. i passed it got a cert.. n it's so fun! u guys out that should try it.. can give u a real dark tan n not to mention sun tan~ =p hahaha.. make a lot of new friends in the course.. nout of 18 of us, 3/4 of us wanted to presue 2 star.. hehehe n b4 we noe it we are enrolled into it! during the 14 hours of kayaking course, we have 2 of our superb coaches who are humorous n at the same time strict.. hmm we learnt a lot of new skills like forward sweep, backward sweep, reverse peddle, capsize drills, rafted rescue, low recovery, moving sideways in a kayak, stern rudder, stopping n able to rotate 360 degrees on the spot. it realli is fun esp the part of rafted rescue! hahaha.. we took turns to b the assistant, victim n rescuer to get a few of the roles played. it is esp difficult where we need to hoist up the kayk up to our own n drag it up to the assistant n mine kayak, still staying in the kayak.. =) then nd to proceed to empty the water.. all those.. hahaha.. all in all, all of us in the course are havin so much fun in the kayak that we decided to get christ n bernard( our 2 coach) to coach us in the next course..

now im realli sun burnt but not as bad as my classmate.. whahhaa.. she realli is as burnt as an lobster!! =D im realli glad that the 2 of them can make it for this course.. i've certainly got to noe them better thru this.. heee..

okies! that's all for today! =p

2004-07-05T09:44:00.000+08:00

yoz~ this is getting out of hand..hhaha im getting symtoms of depression.. phew~ just nice im researching on depression for my english assignment n splash!~ the truth is right under my nose.. =\ my mother even wanted to refer mi to a doc.. ( which means a specialist) mayb due to alot of insult from my so called 'friends' im realli hanging from the rail right now. peer pressure they called it.. yucks!` im actualli gotten overwhelm by such things.. cant believe it! anyway.. im realli tired.. tired out to pretend to b another person n to act good among ppl.. tired to pretend that im happi. pretend that those insult dun hurt mi n all that stuff.. that it is just a passin remark n i just smile abt it. dun take it too hard.. yea i heard it for dun noe how long.. n not to mention alot of times.. for 1 thing im sure of is sth that my family told mi. tat is after a period of time.. u can see the true colour of yr friends ard u n i happen to see 2 of such person. which is definitely towards the negative side.

2004-05-27T16:30:00.000+08:00

'news reporting!~ a strainage of ankle alert! bryna crashing thru..'hahaha.. yupyup sad but true.. i strained my ankle yest.. n went for accupunture. OUCH! that's the expressi0n. some more the physican so attitude worr.. ahhah hit my swollen ankle so hard.. yowl~ =D the worst part was lying on the bed there was the needleSS stuck in my leg for an hour! nice? nope! i called it shi0k! hahaha.. not to mention the needles are burning.. yup! with fire u guess it correctly! heh heh.. anyway, i missed the sci trip today.. =( unable to walk at all.. a fresh wave of pain shot thru my leg if i exert pressure on it.. =/ keep limpin. pretty badly.. o ya! wanna see my leg gotten accupuntured? u can visit my sis webby she took some pics while im moaning in pain.. hahaha.. i alreadi "bong" her alreadi hahaha.. =p

oiii deb n tomo! i did wake up n try to make n effort to go to sch horrrr =p hahaha.. but after several steps of 'catwalk' i nearly collaspe on the floor.. need my mum to escort me back to bed. =\ ahahaa.. wonder how to go to np tmr............... =(

'my **** *** * **** diminished' i can't seem to forget that! haizzzz.. yYYYYyyyyYYY!!! the songs.. the places.. the face.. the feelings.. the accompanianship.. concern n care.. the love... i feel so terrible!!!!! y cant i forget.. help!! im so confused.. shuld i or shuld i not.. hk, tomo, gabby, deb, ken, mum uncle n my sis all sae no.. but y do i have that urge? im jus lucky that at that time hk tomo n gabby was there to make mi resist.. so by the time to react would b too late so by then he will get the point.. haizzz realli realli veri miserable!

im alreadi startin to b able to get over it.. but y at this instant it all flood back again? all becos of that place.. but im glad for goin there too.. hahaha thanks gabby ken hk n tomo! heee.. but y he inform mi..... mayb lik wad most ppl sae 'life has nv been fair' is true... guess this is a lesson learnt n an experienced gained. thru this i realised that consolin a person onli helps a fraction but the rest is up to the person to conquer herself/ himself.. however this is veri difficult! to pick yrself up after such a great fall either emotionally/ physically/ mentally. i'm trying.. realli! but i realli cannot take it anymore.. my onli hope is on gabby tomo hk ken deb n marissa ruabyn the 2e5 untied freinds which are my support in all ways.. thanks! now finalli i understand the meanin of outside u rely on yr friends n at home u rely on yr family! =)

mayb this is a test from 'unknown forces'(hahaha sounds familar?? yup! mr hafiz said that but my meaning is diff ar..) for mi.. to make me stronger perhaps n to make mi more alert n wiser.. however, this make mi still unable to look on the bright side to forget..

ATTITUDE~ : yup i agree i have a serious case of attitude here.. im indecisive too.. which cos a lot of conflicts. i dun think i make a good friend. i dun want to give excuses but i kind of turn off this past few weeks.. i just cant control my thinkings my feelings n my way of reactin to situations! im veri frustrated wif myself too! words can't expressed itself.. i dun noe how to make ppl understand wad i actualli mean but it just came out differently n put a lot of ppl off.. i'm sorry.. lastly i want to tell some1 im realli sorry n that im able to understand how he have felt the other time.. friends i hope?

i will try my veri best to changed my attitude n to get over the fall.